Music soothes my soul....

Music soothes my soul...... Sometimes it feels as though the music is part of me, telling my inner most secrets. I so love how music can set my mood. When I'm starting my day and need a little lift or getting ready to go out and need some warm up dance music or if I am feeling nostalgic or just need a damn good cry, music can give it all to me!

We have music playing in our home from the time the 1st person is up until the last ones goes to bed. My music appreciation has grown and changed over the years. To me there is nothing better than a night of friends and cocktails while dancing to the oldies! But I have also come to love a lot of rap, pop, rock and reggae. Who ever thought I would be able to sing an entire Eminem or Jay-Z song?

Mornings in our home always start with music, a cup of Jo, singing and usually Sara and I dancing in the bathroom as we do our hair. Not only does this start my day in a good mood it is a bonding time for me and my girl. The moves and giggles that happen during that time are definitely YouTube worthy. lmao

Now my son likes the harder stuff~ he introduced me to Illusions and it is one of my favs. I'm not saying he hasn't also learned to appreciate my oldies, I still get a tickle when I am listening to a oldie and he asked who sings it then I hear him listening to it in his room.

I personally want to thank apple for inventing the IPOD. All 3 of us have one and they all are used regularly. When we all take a walk together there is usually 3 different songs playing on our IPOD's. Zack and Sara usually have them in their ears while I am driving just in case I am in the mood for something they don't feel like listening to.

Music really does soothe this savage beast! And it helps me think and feel while Im just trying to figure it out........

On the go......

Ya know most days I am on the go from the time I get up til I hit those sheets in the wee hours. I wouldn't say I am accomplishing great things during this time, I am just busy doing a little bit of everything. It seems as though there is always something going on. I have been to more concerts just this year than I have been to in the last 5 years. Thanks for your contribution Missy:) We took Ginger to her very 1st concert ever ~ John Mayer! Not only is he sexy as hell, his songs speak to me! I gained a new appreciation for Red Butte Gardens. What a great place to see a performance. I look forward to the few more I will be seeing this year.

The races were awesome this year! We went to the night of fire on Saturday and had a great time. Even though the races are great, I think socializing with all the friends that come along means so much more. Trina and Clay and their kids joined us this year for the 1st time. My P.I.C Missy and her trooper Miss Ivy were just to much fun:) Tiffany and Nick are always fun no matter what we are doing! (And we do some strange stuff. lol)


Trying to get my house in order is gonna take awhile!! I took a 4 day weekend so I could get things organized and wound up sleeping almost the entire 4 days. Thats some serious shit coming from an insomniac:) Guess constantly being on the go finally caught up with me. I must admit that the new house and some hormone therapy has helped me finally get several good nights of sleep. Looks like me and the Sandman are together again. lol

Today I finished work early and took my Zack to the doc. His acne no longer stands a chance! And it looks like Ill be gettin my lips done for Christmas:):):):) I came home and made a big pan of Chili~mm mmm good I tell ya. My home smells wonderful! After dinner me and the kids will do a little more planning for the big Vegas trip over Thanksgiving for Sara's 21st birthday. Looks like all our close friends are going with us!! We may need an entire floor for just our peeps. Vegas will never be the same...

But for tonight, I'll just sit and enjoy my home, kids, friends and family while I'm just trying to figure it out.......

Instincts......

You know that feeling you get the first time you see a person that you really care for after you have a falling out? You are never really prepared for the flood of emotions! If you know me, you know I am always prepared. This is the case in this situation also. I knew I would probably have to see Chris today as he works for the same company as I do. It has been over three months since I have seen him. I was not quite sure how it would make me feel, but I was pretty sure it would not feel good. So……I knew when he would be coming into the office today so I positioned myself so I could see him but he would not be able to see me. I admit I wanted a head start on getting my emotions under control! He pulls in and gets out of his truck right in front of me and I get a good long look at him. Believe it or not I didn’t hurt the way I had thought I would. Yes, it hurt that I could not touch him like I use to or have that playful banter. I was hurt but my instinct to take care of him kicked right in. He looked tired and worn out. Instinctively I wanted to wrap my arms around him and soothe away all his stress and worry. Instead I watched him walk in the building and I drove away to see my patients. I’ve had the day to ponder my feeling and have concluded I still love him enough to only want him to be happy, even if it’s not with me. One day I am sure he will realize he let the perfect one slip away. The one that didn’t think there was anything wrong with him, the one that accepted his past and present and just loved him for who he is. I hope I can still be this calm when we actually speak to each other in person! If it stirs up all the emotion I was preparing for then Ill just have to go sit on the porch with a cocktail while Im trying to figure it out……

Changing Season

How I love this time of year. The temperature outside is almost perfect. The chill in the air as the sun sets is soothing against my skin. The light breeze that is just strong enough to tickle your hair makes me sigh. It seems as though this is the time of the season when things slow down a little bit. The kids are back in school and summer vacations have come and gone. I spend more time outside now than I did all summer. I really don’t know how I survived this long without the haven of my backyard. Next year I plan to get a hammock and a tree swing. I don’t think it can get any better than that. (Well, maybe a pool with a Cabana boy and a hot tub but other than that…….) For some reason this time of the year always makes me just stop and appreciate who and what I have. It’s hard to believe Fall is almost here! What a year this has been so far. I have lost track of all the “first” I have experienced this year. Some have been exhilarating and some have truly been a bite in the ass. I have many more “first” planned for the next few months and I hope they all feel as good as it does when I put RN behind my name. The one I am looking forward to the most is the free fall off the Stratosphere in Vegas with Sara:):) What an experience that will be!! And following in a close second is spending the holidays in my house. Thanksgiving will be here this year right before we leave for Vegas. And Christmas has always been a special time. What “first” will I experience as a surprise and what “first” does the next year hold? Guess i'll just sit in my haven swinging away as I'm just trying to figure it out……………