Thursday, June 17, 2010

Take me as I am.....

So tonight I did something I may regret forever. I shared my blog address with someone that may not like what they read. I cannot believe I put myself in a position to be so vulnerable and wonder and wait again. What did they think? Will they ever talk to me again? Will it make me more cautious of what I put in my blogs in the future? Oh hell, what have I done?!!!! Lately I ask myself that question on a daily basis. This has always been my freezone! Im pretty sure my “better judgment” has gone on vacation. Or am I just finding the balls and courage that Kevin took from me? I hope I'm getting my balls back cuz I cant deal with anymore bad decisions this year!
So if I'm being honest, these are some things Ive wanted to say:

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

“Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.”

“Yeah, I miss your smile. But I miss mine more...”

“The same girl who laughs and talks a lot and seems very happy is also the girl who may cry herself to sleep...”

“I know I don't have the prettiest face for you to look at and I don't have the skinniest waist for you to hold, but I promise you, I have the biggest heart to love you with.”

”Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.”

“Sometimes I wish I could go back to the day when I met you and walk away.”

“I might not be the most beautiful or the sexiest...Nor have the perfect body...I might not be anyone’s first choice....But I am a GREAT choice...I don't pretend to be someone else....Cause I'm too good at being ME...I might not be proud of some of the things I've done ....but I'm proud of who I am today. Take me as I am...”

To those who take me as I am~thanks friend I love you too. Thanks for understanding that I am just trying to figure it out……..


  1. I love you! Can't wait for tomorrow night, still need to hear about those dares. Should I wear my sexy underwear or commando as always? LOL

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  3. Mom....I know that you put your full heart and soul into this... actually all three of us gave this our all, I was willing to take Noah under my wing and be that example he needs in his life. Zach could have been the big brother that taught him things a brother would... and you... you have the loving touch a mother figure that would have brought a sense of peace and calmness to thier life. you are such a strong woman and know what is best for you! you completed nursing school alone and was still able to support us kids through that life changing journey. i love you more then words can describe and NO man will ever be able to "meausre up" to the things a mother and potential wife has to offer! remember this; God may have given you the gift to forgive, but he has also given you the strength to walk away when you know you deserve better... stay strong mom, your one of the strongest woman i know and this may not be an easy task for you but in the end, it is your heart that will thank you for it!