Friday, June 25, 2010

Its back and its staying:)

"Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are." I don't know why but this quote has been running around in my head for several months. It would pop into my thoughts at the oddest times. It has been in my thoughts for the last few days. I pondered it and pondered it. Today I realized why it has been hanging around. When things are not the way they should be, it is inevitable that we we will change them. And change them is what I did! A few words of advice~DO NOT-I REPEAT DO NOT SCREW WITH ME OR THOSE I CARE ABOUT~YOU'LL REGRET IT! I went on a tangent and took it upon myself to straighten some things out. Well I guess I should say I did what I had to do to make some situations better. Did I handle it right? Probably not. Did I feel better after I did it? Oh hell yes! Are things in motion? Yup! I'm done being a bystander!!! I have it back and it's here to stay! That's right, I found my courage. Years ago I said what I felt and did what I wanted without thought of consequences. What changed? It was then that I realized that we lose some of our courage the first time we tell another that we love them. My sister and I have talked about this quite a lot lately and have realized it is at that moment that we begin to feel fear. Fear of rejection, fear of hurt and fear of the unknown. Over time the fear lessens but it is still there lurking just waiting to rear its head. I caged that monster and went on a tangent!:) To those caught in the crossfire~please forgive me but its time. To those that deserved it~picked the wrong redheads this time didn't ya?!!!! Looks like a hell of a ride while I'm just trying to figure it out...........

1 comment:

  1. wow mom... but look at what you going on a tangent did... HAHAHAHAHAHA SUCKA FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it sucks to be livin on a lie that you get busted for BAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH i crack myself up yo!